Patience is a Beer-chu

Ever since I started my career in the Call Center industry and became a part of Management, my patience has been often tested. I think I have encountered every type of reps; from the know-it-all, emo, passive, ambassador of fairness and equality, war freak, up to the Bibbo hotdogs. They all, at one point tried to push me to the edge.

When I was a younger manager, I would often flip out on reps on their slightest complaint – I guess it was because I always compare myself to them. Most of the time, I would ask myself these questions: “Why can’t they understand these changes?” “Why do they always complain?” “Why can’t they do their job the way I would like them to do it?”


But until now, those questions remained a conundrum. Well, maybe not. I know the answers to the questions because it was explained during our Leadership Trainings. Maybe I just don’t want to understand them sometimes. Yeah, I guess that is the truth about my dilemma. I taught my mind to shut down my capability to understand human flaws.

I am not saying that I always do that. There are just some instances that I don’t want to understand them because I am tired of sympathizing. People are frequently unforgiving and inconsiderate. They would often pity themselves because of the misfortunes and injustices that they think is happening to them. However, do we even stop and think about the unfair things that we did to our friends, colleagues or relatives? I guess, some do, and some don’t.

Maybe the point of this blog is just for me to let someone know (If there’s any chance that someone is reading my blog) that “We have to learn to shut our mouths when bad things happen to us.” We should not inflict the miseries that we are feeling to other people. It is not right and it is utterly stupid. It is not their fault that we have these complications in life. Also, we should not expect that everyone will understand our mood swings, tantrums or problems because WE ALL HAVE PROBLEMS. No one likes a whiner. So, if we do not like the people we work with its either we try to work with them in peace or look for another job. Like the famous saying goes – “If you can’t take the heat, get out of the kitchen”.

To end this, all I wanted to say is – “You can complain once but do not rant ALL THE FREAKING TIME!” It is annoying, brings negative vibes and lastly, PEOPLE DON’T GIVE A DAMN. :)

My 10 Day Suicide - Day 8

2 more days and my agony is over - well not yet because I still have to ease out my stomach from just taking in liquid to solid food. So after the 10th day, I can now drink orange juice. Atleast it will taste different. I guess that is the only perk. I did the salt water flush and got the same result. I flushed out all the toxins in my system (hopefully). I only finished 1.5 liters of the juice because I am lazy to fix another juice and I just lay down the whole day.

I still get hungry and I imagine my self eating meat. But I am afraid that my tummy wont digest the solid food. Oh well, we'll see what happens when I finally eat.

My tummy is flabby because the skin is stretched but I bought some coupons for the mesotheraphy treatment so they can tighten my skin and also get rid of the cellulites. I am excited to know how much weight I lost!

I just hope I dont get back to my old fat self again. :(

My 10 Day Suicide - Day 7

My only fear on being thin is being fat again. I am still not the "thin-thin" but I definitely lost some weight. I am excited to know how much I lost but again like what I have mentioned on my previous blog, I will do it on my last day. When I woke up this morning my body was very sore from the activity that we did yesterday, which was the photo shoot. I woke up and went to the loo to release the unwanted stuff (that's the laxative taking effect). Now, I decided to do the salt water flush. Initially, I intended to drink 1 liter of it but like what I read online it tasted awful. It was so nasty I almost puked. I immediately felt sick when I drank it. I think I only consumed 500ml of the SWF solution. I lay down to avoid vomiting the solution and after 30 minutes or even less, my stomach began rambling. Nature is calling me. I was in the CR for 3 times and all I emitted was water but loads of it.

Enough of the nasty stuff, I went to the grocery store again to replenish my stock. Believe it or not that maple syrup only lasted for 3 days. So, I went to shop and bought some food that I can eat when my cleansing diet is finally over. I cant wait to eat! To finally chew and taste something other than lemonade, maple syrup, cayenne and salt. I want to research on how to cook vegetables! But I will just do that on my 11th day.

My head is aching today and so is my body. But like what they said, "no pain, no gain", so I really have to stay focused and finish this battle.

And the perk of the day, I was able to wear the shorts that whenever I wear before I cannot breathe so I have to unbutton it. But now, no need to do that! For now, time to sleep. xoxo

My 10 Day Suicide - Day 6

I am almost done. Almost. But not yet. Sigh. I just want this cleansing diet to end. But I am afraid that If I go back to my regular eating habit I will return to being fat and unhappy. I just wish I had a faster metabolism. The worst thing about this diet is that when you have to do something that requires a lot of energy it will definitely kill you. We went to do the photo shoot yesterday in Camp Marina. My brilliant photographer and rep, Jan chose an uphill site. Damn! I am so fucking dead. It was super hot that day and for 6 days the only things I was consuming are juice and water and he chose a site where you need to do hiking? I wanted to kill him! But I didn't. Thank God. After the stressful but fun photo shoot, I went straight home, washed my face, brushed my teeth, drank my tea and collapsed. That's it. :)

My 10 Day Suicide - Day 5

Atlast! I made it till Day 5! I made it halfway! I am so proud of myself! (Doing the happy dance) It was a daily struggle and I am constantly hungry but I have no choice but to fight it and consume the juice or water. I have made it this far and there is no point to surrender!

Where I work, I am surrounded by temptations. My colleagues eating "lechong kawali", my reps eating "burger" and below the building are restaurants that serves the most delectable and mouth watering food. So kill me now.

I did my regular routine but I failed to drink my laxative. I will just do the salt water flush this weekend. So I do not have to go to the CR every now and then while at work. I feel a little bloated maybe because I didn't "release" anything. But I'll definitely drink that tea when I get home.

The happy part about it is that I now fit on the jeans that I can never ever wear! If I can even button the jeans, a muffin top will definitely show. You know where your belly is hanging out of your jeans. But I cannot see that! HA! :)

So I am on to Day 6. Wish me luck! <3

Random Rantings

I have been the person whom you might consider to be one of the lucky ones. I have an imperfect-perfect family, a steady job, awesome set of friends, great bosses (some of 'em) and before a faithful and loving boyfriend (notice the word before). But I guess, I am the type of person who always want to have some complications in life. I tend to ruin what is perfect and deviate from what is normal and right.

I tried to lead my life in a way that it is favorable to other people. Maybe my ex was right. I always want to please other people. But not the people who love me. Now I am confused. Did I work my ass off and disregard myself in order for me to help my siblings to finish college because I want to impress other people? How many times did I control myself not to buy those lovely shoes or that new make up so that I can give something to my family? Maybe I also did that so that other people will be amazed how compassionate I am.

Special -- that's how I want to be treated. But whenever someone is treating me like that. I take them for granted. Why am I so good in hurting people? People that matters to me. People that I know will love me no matter what. I have hurt my family when I did not finish college and got accidentally pregnant. I have hurt my boyfriend by cheating on him and not loving him the way he deserved. Am I really this vicious person who is not capable of discerning true love?

Mistakes -- I've got tons of them. Some of them repetitive, some of them new. Most of the time repetitive. My ex told me that the reason why I keep on committing the same mistakes is because I never learn. But my question is WHEN DO YOU LEARN? Do you learn when you don't do it anymore? I really don't know.

I always say, I just want to have a happy and normal life. But maybe just maybe, I am the one who is making it unhappy and abnormal.

My 10 Day Suicide - Day 4

I never thought I would reach this far. I was at the verge of surrendering and eating that sumptuous meat. It was so enticing! But I told myself again "just a few more days Michelle, just control it. Hang in there". So I was able to stop myself from eating. I then gulped my juice and just sighed.I had minor headaches today but the hunger is kicking in so bad. I want to quit but I didn't. I have sacrificed already and now I must be brave enough to finish what I started. The only problem that I have with this diet is my inability to sleep. I always sleep at 3pm or 4pm because I am waiting for the laxative to work. And after I do my dirty deed that is the only time I am able to sleep. And in addition to that, I really felt sick that aftenoon. My tummy was rumbling and I had a fever. The A/C was already turned off but I still feel cold. Thank God when I woke up this evening I was perspiring and feeling much better.

But to be fair this diet is not so bad at all. I am not experiencing hyperacidity which I always do whenever I am on a diet. I guess that is the good side of it because its main purpose is really to detoxify. This diet may end in 10 days but after that I have to still be on a liquid diet for atleast a couple of days before I can really eat food.

On the positive results, I can see my collar bone now. My jaw is more visible and I fit into my pants nicely. My pimples seems to disappear. I just wish my cellulite would too. I am doing the same routine and it gets harder each day but I am not going to quit (Hopefully). Now back to work.