My 10 Day Suicide - Day 3

Day 3 was way kinder. I had headache but not as severe as the one that I had on Day 2. I felt hungry but the juice and water paved it. I didn't weight myself yet. I dont want to feel disappointed if I didn't lose that much weight. Maybe I'll do it on my 10th day. I brought 1.5 liters of the juice at work and consumed it in sips. I drink it alternately with water. I think I only drank a liter of agua. It was not antagonizing like what I have mentioned but I kept on dreaming of eating my favorite porkchop. Oh, the agony! But I have to do this. I have to be healthy and get back to shape. I am not doing this because of other people. I am doing myself a favor. I have been hospitalized this year and I dont want that to happen again. I want to regain energy. Being able to run fast, walk a long mile and be my old self again.

So after work, we went straight to SM. I am running out of stocks so I need to replenish it. The ingredients are not cheap, I must say. But the pay off is priceless. We walked through the grocery store and saw all the food that I like. I want to cry. But who said getting thin was easy? I had to battle my urge to pick that cheetos who's been calling my name. I think I'm mental. I was able to buy a maple syrup that is less expensive than the first one that I bought. Also bought some sea salt for the salt water flush so GOODLUCK to me.

When we arrived home, my supportive colleagues cooked lunch. It was just sardines and noodles but I almost drooled while watching them eat. I just told myself, "just a few more days Michelle, few more days". After looking at them enviously, I gulped my juice and tea then went to bed. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to sleep well (maybe its because of the juice) and my tummy started to rumble at 3pm. And the rest was history. Slept at around 4pm and woke up at 11pm. (I can now wear my pants effortlessly) Let's begin Day 4! :)

My 10 Day Suicide - Day 2

Day 2 was tragic. I experienced severe headache and hunger. I was able to poop but not that much because I didn't take any laxative or Salt water flush. I was in the office and I can smell what all the reps were eating. I searched Google if there was some cheat I can do while doing the Master Cleanse or if I can eat something. But to my dismay I found none. Now, I want to kill myself or kill someone. I asked myself why wasn't I born skinny?. I was super hungry! Just to kill my starvation I drank almost 2 liters of water and 2 liters of the juice. I peed a million times. I drank some laxative before I slept and my tummy woke me up at around 2pm. I was in utmost pain! The laxative was working and my stomach is tormenting me. I think I stayed in the loo for 30 minutes just to make sure I released all the "toxins". When you are not eating. You get easily cold. I was sleeping in an air conditioned room and since I was sharing it with some of my colleagues, I stepped outside and slept in the living room. I woke and transferred to my room since they are already awake and the A/C was in a tolerable temperature. I slept some more. When I woke up this evening (because I work at night) I feel much better. No more headache, no more hunger pangs. Now let's start day 3. :) (And oh I can see my collar bone again! Wee!)

My 10 day suicide

I am starting my "master cleanse diet" it is also known as lemonade diet. They say that it will help if you create a journal about the experience. So here I am. Starving and dizzy.

DAY 1: I woke up at around 8AM and prepared my juice. I bought it last Saturday together with my colleagues. I binged last Sunday because I know I would not be able to eat for 10 days. SO as I was preparing it some of the lemonade and maple spilled because I didn't buy a funnel! The maple syrup is super expensive so I am trying not to spill it but ofcourse I still did. So I took a sip of the juice and it tasted like a bland lemonade with a kick of spice due to the cayenne pepper. I finished two liters in one day and I peed a thousand times. I feel hungry. But whenever I am feeling the urge to eat. I drink the juice or some water. So far so good. Now let's start Day 2.

The Best Things In Life Are Free

This is the only cash I have left. Sana umabot until Friday. Buti nalang may libreng ice cream and cake from my office mate. Instant free lunch! Thank you Lord! :)